WARNING! My first real complaining post!!!

Here's my situation. I have a kidney infection, a fever of 103 degrees, I feel like I'm going to pass out, I can't eat anything because I feel sooooo nauseated, I can't keep my eyes open because I'm absolutely exhausted and I'm sooooo shaky! Seriously!!! When will the health problems stop!?! What on earth am I doing wrong here!?! Give me a little break!!! There is something completely different every month! I woke up around 4 a.m. on Thursday with the worst back pain and nausea and yucky...um...pee. So I called the doctor but they had no openings so I had to wait it out this weekend. And now today I'm miserable! They didn't have any openings at the doctors office for today either, so I have to go allll night like this until almost noon tomorrow!!! I have chugged down an entire bottle of cranberry juice for the past 4 days and if I take another sip I swear I'll throw up. Seriously, if they have to hospitalize me I'll freak out. It's not my fault that they didn't have any openings every time I called...or they plain just forgot that they put me on hold. I can't handle another health crisis...emotionally or financially! Every stinking day we get a new doctor bill, or a statement saying that our insurance won't pay for something because the surgeon used an assistant instead of doing it himself without telling us. So, since the assistant is out of network we have to fork the bill! Sooooo unfair! And the insurance won't pay for the anesthesiologist because their computer says it was unnecessary. How on earth is being put under for a surgery unnecessary? Mike doesn't have any more time off either. I know there are soooo many people out there with worse problems than me and I should be counting my blessings that I have all my limbs...and I can taste...and see....and hear....and I don't have to have blood transfusions every week...and I don't have a colostomy bag....and that I'm even alive. But sometimes, it just feels good to complain once in a while. Okay, I'm done now.

*UPDATE: I got in to see the doctor today and he was pretty upset that they didn't try harder to squeeze me in. That was good to hear. They did a bunch of blood tests and some other "samples". And I now have antibiotics and PAIN KILLERS!!! Yaaaaaaay! I have to have an MRI tomorrow to see the damage done to my kidneys and see how they are functioning and make sure the infection hasn't spread to anywhere else. I'll find out the results from the labs tomorrow to see if I need to be hospitalized. Eeek! Thanks for all of your prayers!