Wednesday, May 16, 2007

Today is one of those days when I just can't concentrate on anything for more than 30 seconds. I think my significant other is having a "rubber band" week (for anyone who has read the "Men Are From Mars, Women Are From Venus" book you know what I'm talking about) and has hardly said a word or looked at me in 2 days. My Grandma (the one who's husband passed away in September) is getting her test results from the doctor today, they think she has cancer. She has been on so many medications that her kidneys have had about all they can take, so they're not sure what they will be able to do for her. On one hand, I know she is excited to be with Grandpa again, it will be a glorious reunion! She is terribly miserable and lonely without him. Yet the selfish side of me can't bare to say good-bye. I'm supposed to see her next weekend at my cousin's wedding. If these results today come back as bad news, how do I greet her next knowing that I may never see her again in this life? Do I just hug her and be happy and act like nothing is wrong, or do I fall to her feet and weep because I fear for how she will have to suffer? I don't really know what else to say, other than it's going to be a long day.

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Diana said...

I'm sorry you are having a not so good day. I hope that everything is okay with your Grandma. Just remember to hug her and tell her you love her when you do see her.